I’ve hit a wall. No this isn’t another “boo hoo renovation is hard” post this is more of a “what am I doing with this blog” type post. I’ve written for 16 weeks about quartz countertops, hardwood floors, spending lots of money, and making way more decisions than I’m comfortable with. It’s been overwhelming and all consuming- but, that’s not my whole life. Even when I’ve said that it was. The home renovation process has slowed down. The house is livable and I’m fine with that being an achievement in itself right now. Yes, we still don’t have door knobs and the bathroom door is still a trap- but that’s life. The to do list will never go away. It will never be “finished” and recently, if I’m being honest, I’ve found myself feeling pressured for weekly “content” and rushing this process for the sake of the dumb blog ™.
There are some things I know a lot about. This list includes; Star Wars, cats, how to deescalate interpersonal conflict, iced coffee, and navy. Not the navy. Just navy. When it comes to interior design, I am a hobbyist at best. I basically see things I like online and do my damnedest to recreate other people’s ideas in my own home. Mimicry at it’s finest. You want to know what everyone has in their homes that I really really like? Vintage rugs. Guess what I know absolutely nothing about. Buying vintage rugs. Total newb alert. Frankly, the only thing I know about buying vintage rugs was that I wanted to buy them. Simple really.
Perfection. Even in the kitchen.
I’m tired. We’re living in a state of chaos and it’s hard to spot the light at the end of the tunnel through all of these cardboard boxes. There’s a reason why home renovation shows focus on the before and the after and brush past the during. Oh, the soul crushing, monotonous, and never ending during. Doors don’t have knobs, clothes don’t have a dresser, and the bathroom door still doesn’t close. My life is one big walking present participle- painting, cleaning, organizing, deciding, building, and stressing. Nothing is resolved, nothing is finished, and it’s wearing on me.
Dramatic small spaces are the way to go. Everybody says so. However decking out a powder room in blue frolicking zebra wallpaper, with brass hardware, marble sink, and a chandelier just doesn’t seem like smart idea, yet somehow it works. The experts cite 3 main pieces of evidence as to why this is:
- You can tolerate more chaos in an environment you don’t have to spend all day in (see: daytime drama).
- There’s no point in trying to give the illusion of spaciousness in a tiny room.
- It’s not a huge commitment if you hate it.